How do you like these eggs?

Just spent time writing about Flag and these egges; but did not save it...so ...I was playing with photoshop tonight and decided to make a motage of egges (pix from posiegetscozy site)....had several calls from Flag tonight...nice to hear their voices....miss them.

C/B/S: Or "What is Happiness?"

L1 joined me at UU this am...what a treat...it was EXACTLY what I needed to hear for sure....no more complain; blaming; shaming...but "compassion and loving kindness"---had lunch with d,h,l then went home and had a great nap...while it rained outside. then a nice long walk on the river so for today I have 4120 steps and yesterday I had 2000. I am starting to use my pedometer and GET WITH IT. Yes, I have had loss but I also have joy with meeting new people, love from my friends, and 40 students who are looking for leadership re the new BASW program. I don't have to get back to "my ole LARGER self"...walking is something I can do and it does make me feel better; by the way, I actually cooked myself some dinner tonight! baked potato and a steak with lots left over for tomorrow or lunch next week sometime. I can cook and take care of myself...looking at all the musicals and dramas in Portland---having so many choices.

thanks to hp for friday

just don't ask me about my ordeal with the dmv....still not over with...then with wf; my level of patience is so low and now it is below any tolerance of frustration that I almost yelled today.....thank you hp for l1. she tells me the truth; whatever that is! I need to keep the door to that dark door locked! got home and started watching tv re mcc running mate...what a joke....no more shall be said by me on that topic----HOWEVER, OH MY GOODNESS; BO WAS SO WONDERFUL....what a human being he is....he is like looking into a hologram; you will see what you want and he reflects back all the positive notions of life; a man for all seasons (anger, grief, joy, calm, peace, fun, happy, shy, and a gifted oratory); if the country does not vote him in then we deserve what happens...but i am going to work for him! pray for his safety and for his family...nite nite

I am a happy camper....

Watching Biden tonight gave me some hope that maybe bo can make it...and Clinton...he delivered for him too...just love that guy...I wonder if Hilary and Bill actually can talk with each other and what do they talk about...or do they just listen to each other's presentation? their bedroom must be pretty crowded! got to give it to them for hanging in there after all that has happened...I am not sure how I got on this idea of their coupleship...went to the conference today and saw three people from northern Arizona...miss them even more now. my leg is not hurting as much today...don't say it too loud cuz I don't want it to hear this cuz it might act up tomorrow. back to psu tomorrow...tying not to bring so much home but to leave it at the office and give myself some "separation" for my work...need to really turn over a new leaf on life....so far it is only theory and no application...nite nite (this is a picture I actually took myself)..love the color.

Life in Portland

This is a quote from Rilke from aliedwards website...yes, I can identify with it..very mixed emotions lately..up and down and up and down...etc etc etc...talked with c from flag and that was good; it helped my spirits. watched the dnc tonight and that was hopeful. sure hope bo makes it...went to a birthday party for our dean, it was fun and I enjoyed getting to know more of the staff and faculty. off to the conference tomorrow...hope to see some people I know from all around the country...good nite...patience is the hardest lesson for me! Rainer Maria Rilke : Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.

Getting a taste of what it is going to feel like in a few months...shall I say? RAIN

Grey, wet, humid, cloudy, raining and I am not talking about my mood. A pre-day to get ready for the rain season. Life does not stop but everyone goes outside to ride, walk, drive, and play...so, a foretelling of the upcoming months. Went to l1 last night and had a wonderful time with some of her friends who knew her mom...lovely couple and funny too. "Girls want to have more fun" re my photo.

Guess What?

Can you tell I just moved to Portland...everyone has hair,fur,barely hair,dreadlocks, lots of hair....all different color..no I am not planning on that---right now anyway. for real..nite nite...what fun this was. (pix from posiegetscozy site)

thank you to hp for my successful operation four years ago..

My heart valve is doing really well...tick tick tick tick...thank you hp for giving me this opportuntity to have had this surgery. So time to relax and take a break! Love this pix of the rabbits...so sweet and soft....gentle time.

Some time it is just good to laugh--out loud

No comment; I think it speaks for its self/herself/his self/or trans self???....from posiegetscozy site.

up with people

these are pictures from amanda's website...she is really funny; I met her at uu this am; her site is www.reamanda.com hearing her this am really was beneficial to my spirit...she makes "microshrines"...so that will be my first project on my new "artbychar" desk...thank you l1 and amanda. niteniteagain...remember i said "balance"

joyfulness and happiness

went to uu this am in Olympia and it was what the dr ordered...the guest minister was excellent and spoke to my heart; she talked about joyfulness...i will be contacting her in the near future; had a pleasant time with a and she showed me around her new work site at ec. Olympia is beautiful but we were in a "heat wave" and I think I got overheated...had to stay in later afternoon and evening...it took me over 5 hours to get to olympia from portland....the traffic was delayed due to a brush fire on the freeway...so had to go very slowly for about 30 miles...my trip home was about 2 hours so pretty regular and no major problems. balance has to be my mantra now....balance...balance...balance....nite nite

oh dear

not doing too well...too much work and not enough time. re hurt the back of my knee last night on a trip back to work to get my phone...had to walk up and down the stairs cuz the elevator was OFF. this really is unreal to me, it is public building and faculty work at odd hours...at least I do...i filed a complaint today at work...then got a form letter back re the hours the elevator does work...so much for that...i will take it to the next level. office of disability! i know my mood is up and down cuz i am not walking and getting my dose of endorphins. long conversation w a today; i am going to olympia on sat and return home either sun or early monday am. can't wait to see her...miss az. just frustrated!

What I want for my birthday...

These pictures are from the 2008 opening ceremony...I adore these gray robes and headdresses. Won't you know the Chinese would do it big, powerful, artistic, dazzling, awesome, unique, post-modern and ancient all at the same time. What a culture! It was a once in a lifetime experience to have seen this ceremony with my dear family, LDH...I pray that the entire olympics are problem free. You go "The People of the Water, Mountains, and Air" They even invented paper which is no small feat.

too much stuff--to wash

My life today started with A HUGE PILE OF LAUNDRY...it took a grocery cart to carry it all to their laundry room. Rugs, rugs, more rugs....spent the day with Charlotte..last week was all people most of the time so I spent today with CG...l,h.d had me over for dinner and to watch the Olympics...I was so taken back with it all I almost started to cry...it was so moving...so to speak, historical, symbolic, beautiful, exotic, and the fire works. They invented paper, fireworks, and so many more treasures...so I loved it...got to meet one of L's oldest friends and her family. They are all so nice..did not do any work related stuff today...let my brain rest and recovery. my knee is still hurting so that is no fun. had a doc appointment on Monday so lets see what they say...good nite...

Over flowing with PAPER.

Getting a new BASW program underway sure requires tons of paper, emails, meetings, new contacts, meeting students, new agencies, etc. Yes, I did agree to be the Director. I really like it...I need to "Leave time for you to play and laugh"...ok...got lost tonight and was so off the track I just drove home after an hour...As someone else told me "I saw the highway but could not figure how to get there and just drove around and around" yep that was me...I tried to park downtown and that was a big waste of time...so came home and walked around the marina and had dinner at one of the little eateries. So, had a good day. The picture is of the poster in Arizona re voting down the anti-marriage amendment in the constitution...it was voted down last year but it was re-introduced...I will vote against it for sure....at least in spirit since I am already registered in Oregon. nite nite

just saying hi

hi everyone....pretty good day except when I have to walk (I decided not use my support) and I paid for it all day...just walked to the bookstore and went down some stairs...my my, I could barely get up. darn it...met someone new re potential teaching in our program; so many neat social workers. so did not sleep at all due to my bedroom being SO HOT...I relocated into the living room and fell asleep and then got up and went back to my bed at 3:00am....so, not sleeping very well and that gets crazy with my system; what time is it and what am I doing so early in the morning and can't i go to sleep? fear, anxiety, pain, root less, transplanted and culture shock and on top of all of this A NEW JOB. thank goddess for l! all at once. having fun yet? no. of course my self talk is: it just takes time, Char and I know that but going thorough it is so hard....what was good today? met another woman who moved here from Phx area and she is enrolled in the PHD program...we talked so much about AZ and mutual friends...gots lots done at the office and stayed until 7:20 pm....good nite

90 degrees sort of day

was up at 5:15 am yesterday to go to the kp re my knee...it actually opened about 7:00 am...so I just went and got some bkfast...it is quite a place....my meds were a 1.00 each..(he basically said it will just take time to heal--gave me a knee support made in china; i wore it yesterday and it did make it feel better; how cool is that! so all my walking in june caused this...so much for walking and of course, my role is that I WALKED TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. So now I hope I don't have to talk about my physical condition any more... Meds at kf were only 1.00 a piece....I can never retire that's for sure....spent most of the rest of the day at my office trying to get my stuff in order; I have been putting more and more on the walls; it is looking more and more like I like it there..plus I am getting ready to actually see students this week! sure hope I know what to say to them...yikes....it is suppose to be 90 degrees today in portland...my my...almost like, shall i say....ARIZONA. l1 gave me some excellent advice yesterday about my 'BODY/MIND/SPIRIT" so I called today re what she suggested....so, off to work at my real office and see what is happening there.. Oh saw "Mama Mia" on Sat p.m. with L,D, H, J, and her sister...what fun that was; D was such a good sport...definitely a "gals" movie....so i just wonder around don't i...no comments allowed since this is my blog. (photo from dooce site-her dog, chuck--just love his face...I really don't feel like that today; just like the pix).

Got Blogs?

In 2007 I posted 113 blogs and for 2008: 129--for a total of 242...who would have known....just wish i could figure how to print them all so I could have a hard copy...anyone know?

Just trying to catch up--

went to see wall-e last night with k; cute and sweet; dating is always so hard isn't it? no matter what the planet is like...loved the music and the animation. so this am trying to get some of my home stuff taken care of and doing it very slowly...my left leg/knee is still hurting so call me "limp along"...I am calling the doc on monday for an appointment at the naca health clinic (portland indian clinic). at least the rest of my body is doing pretty good, saw l2 on Thursday at the LC, it was delightful seeing and talking with someone from flag...the honeymoon of p has ended and now i am into loss and more loss feelings...getting reestablished is so hard. making new friends is hard too...thank g for l1 and her sweet family. on the good side i am meeting new people and fac are certainly reaching out to me...got a parking sticker yesterday so i don't have to walk so far....cloud cover yesterday and rain...so foretelling of the future...I AM GOING TO BE POSITIVE...it is my water decade! now to pay bills. this will be fun! wish a a safe trip to Washington to her new home....