Art Is Now

Started a new online class called "Got Paint?" with Big Picture Scrapbooking; played with several paints tonight: dark blue, gold, yellow, light blue, purple and gesso...developed a beginning art journal for the class;I have taken paint classes previously but I am always open to learning more each day. Some doors close and others open........doors are my theme this year....busy day with many calls, letters, and conversations. L1 said the word "intellectual imagination"---she is so creative and energized. Said hi to h too. Self care needs to be my main goal from now on...have to get my on-line class finished for this next semester. Not too much to do. Barack Obama is on his way to the white house---"house of color"! He sounds like a post Kennedy visionary minister/healer. Our country needs his skills, intellect, and poise. He is a global post race leader. Politics are so interesting. Prayers for t and i for future forgiveness, love, and acceptance of our lives together and our lives going in different directions; it has been a really hard couple of weeks for both of us. Blessing to her in her new life. May the HP help both of us during these times of difficulty and tension. Namaste! Namaste!

Laura's Maui Sea Shore Hands Filled with Art

Sure having fun tonight with all the techniques and tools that are available with Photoshop....as a new friend said to me today "you alter anything"; I would have to say "yes, I do and I love it"...so this image was drawn with color pencils in Maui on her 10 day trip with her lovely daughter and hubby; it was on her blog site tonight so guess what "I altered it" ....what do you think L? I have started a new book with images of doors so if you have any please send them to me; my new symbol for the upcoming year....last year it was calendars but now it it DOORS.

Laura

Laura

Laura

Old Door (2007): New Door:2008

Very compelling week re future decisions..."All Good Things Must Come to an End"--new memories every day and re contextualization of my former life. The last day of the year....how ironic....the opposite situation of last year...I took a workshop for the majority of the year called "A Year To Remember"; little did I know what the impact of this title would be to my own life; More like a "Year to Forget". Gave l2 a photo shop image of a mushroom coming up from the underworld and now it is glowing with life and diamonds; a new path from death to life. Thanks to all of you who have made my life bearable considering the depth of pain, hurt, disappointment this has been; the word trust will never be the same nor commitment. As I have stated several times "Never in a Million Years" did I think this would happen....boy/girl I was wrong...my new life will be wonderful and my heart will heal...forgiveness is another topic, quite frankly...it is a process. I have to forgive myself first as to all the mistakes I have made; promises I did not keep; nor love I did not show. I...open doors.....I....opening.....I.....loving.....I.....giving....I going forward...that will be my lesson for this next year.

ode to ecee

All I can say is thank you very much about million times....just finished with 2 more options re future. Since 7 am....later

Merry Christmis--2007

I am happy today is going to be a memory tomorrow...went to c for dinner with t,a,b,etc.L3 called me this am...fun to talk with her...she is so interesting. had to leave c early since I had a terrible stomach ache...too much rich food. cleaned the house this am; woke up to cat pee in my bed...what a fun way to wake up; my eyes were not even open...so started to do launry at 6 am.....my little tree is so sweet and has been very pleasant to look at for the last couple of weeks...my lights are cute too. went to uu service last night at cc/that was so hard, I loved the music so that helped a lot...c and b were there; we all went to denneys for post service treats; the moon was beautiful...l1 called me from h today and I could hear the ocean in the background....I wore the medicine bag she sent me with the silver angel in it....it was 7 months yesterday and I had a 2.5 hour meeting with her yesterday with w...so hard. it will be over and and I will get through this too..i am loved and i love myself...nite

In between time: Solstice (sun + wait)

Worry is not necessary. Spend an equal amount of time counting blessings. Start with your childhood. Take the time to remember to really appreciate each blessing, absorb it and think of all the good effects it has had on you and others. Don't overlook the ordinary. There are a thousand blessings in every moment, if you look. Each breath and heartbeat, every color, texture, taste, smell.A lifetime of blessings, beauty, love. Thankfulness is like water. Allow yourself the release, the cleansing, the quenching that gratefulness brings. Mary Lee Bonasera Matthews : (from aliedwardsblog) The last few days have been so hard emotionally for me and I want to bless all my friends [you know who u r] who have listened to me over and over again...trying to make sense (cents) of it...This poem is so true....this too will be over and I can get on with my own life as a loving independent person.

Medicine Bag

l1 sent me a beautiful medicine bag which is handmade of dark purple velvet with dark brown, green, orange, and blue beads with a round dark green stone surrounded with more colorful beads in the center of the bag; so yummy--it arrived on a day that has been quite scary, empowering, crazy--with surprises-I have had some fun talking with a new friend--lots of laughing and that is what I need! lots of love and support from my many angels....went to Target and bought 9.99 worth of kitchen items; got my 3 classes all graded and the grades posted! yea another semester done! i have to get the on-line class ready for spring but that should not take too long...ali gave me two presents to put under my tree...they look so beautiful...she is taking my car to pick up her son in Phx tomorrow---so I will have time to walk and do more fixing my house up....tiny things but everything helps..maybe take the bus to town and walk down there...clean my office? who knows; it will be and so will I.

Luminaries in Flagstaff

Had a very nice day with a new friend; we talk a lot and laugh a lot; I want that in a friendship. We went to Late for the Train and I lost my hot chocolate; which seems unreal but it happened; saw the luminaries in a neighborhood on the west side; it was joyful to see all the lights, carolers, fires to keep the walkers warm; and real animals for the baby jesus story; horse, sheep, donkey, dogs. Flagstaff is so beautiful with the blue skies and our wonderful San Francisco Peaks all covered in snow. Went by my house on Talkington and passed it by--got lost and actually very good that we basically missed it...another time and my life is expanding in new and fun ways. Miracles happen everyday if we are open to them. I am pretty tired right now..nite nite..

Appraisal Time & My Future???

This picture is from Zen Habits and the photographer is ania316; so it represents a very small house and the occupant looks happy; so this can apply to me too; yesterday a woman came by to appraise my "hogan" and she called the bank with her appraisal today...how fast they are working these days...so, j will help me later and then the negotiations will begin....almost done with grading...bought art supplies this afternoon so I am really looking forward to "artbychar" time...nice to talk with l today. z called but I could not talk long at all...so hopefully I will hear from him soon re the next projects...what a delightful person....still not getting my camera to transfer pix to this computer...darn it...oh well now maybe I will have some time to work on it...later hugs to l1 and nice comment!

Snow Time

Thank you HP for the wonders of snow....lots of snow....we love it; all except driving in it; slow driving for sure....I think I will be snowed in tomorrow so I got 3 videos...plus continue to grade my on line classes; sure happy my other class is done.........I need to find someone who will shovel the snow around my car! or let it melt....kitty paws in the snow is so cute--Ophie sure wanted to come in fast when I got home tonight; I actually cooked a pot roast in the crock pot today...it sure smells good when you open the door; so I was up t 6 am for some reason....so I am getting tired now. This image was taken last year but it looks like that tonight....love snow! nite nite--l1 love your pictures from Santa Fe! smile

Up to Art

The image of the Rose is not my work....it is from a nationl artist and I did not take her name down...so forgive me. In between grading papers and getting a final ready I am playing with art...what fun..I decorated my Holiday tree on Wed pm...very sweet; lights in the kitchen; lovely all around me...I can be happy and I will be happy...it snowed today and rained all day yesterday....thank you hp....i was using the treadmill last night and ruby's spirit was there--I looked on the blue couch where she used to sit and I saw an image of her (a flash of color); Libby was sitting by her...no, I am not going nuts, at least not any more than usual. So off to go shopping with the crowds..mainly window shopping....later

Just think of an Austrailian Lesbian from the Outback

yep, that is what i said....just vision it for yourself; anyway....last night got together with 3 other women and our Spanish teacher at a local VERY HISPANIC restaurant (all the people speak Spanish; tv is on a Hispanic channel; Mexican food; Spanish newspaper; many local people who are all talking Spanish to each other)...yep, we went there and "tried to speak Spanish"---one of the very first things that happened was the woman who I thought was the best Spanish speaker in our group; who is a vegetarian ordered in Spanish "cheese crips with beef tongue"---it was so funny to say the least; someone caught the mistake and she RAN UP TO THE FRONT TO CHANGE HER ORDER...we all laughed soooooooooooooooo hard...instead of saying "veggies" she asked for "beef tongue"...so it happens to the best of us.... So, one more week of teaching...sure looking forward to our break...z over last night to work on the bathroom etc. He wrote me a very sweet thank you note for the gift certificate....a love of a human being! His mom did good! Received a special call last night...very sweet. Off to grade papers and etc. Have a nice day everyone....loved the Hawaiian dancers and spiritual singers and dancers, You deserve to have some rest and family love. L1.

IT IS RAINING, RAINING, RAINING...

I am so grateful that is started to rain today....it has been too long...this morning we had fog surrounding our Peaks....so lovely, soft, and calming...it is raining....may all of our plants, trees, birds, 4 legged enjoy the RAIN. I do. Had lunch with a friend who I have known for 34 years..we were both social workers in Phx in the early 70's..she is very special...I appreciate her friendship and the support she has given to me. I actually have room in the garage to PARK MY CAR! This is a first, since we have had the house....it is tight but it is IN THE GARAGE. Took out the Christmas boxes and started to put some items up...first I was not going to but I am going to so I will have my own memories of my home now....thank you to all my friends who have helped me get through this event. The blubs I planted for Ruby are starting to come up (green tips); I have them next to the coffee maker in the kitchen...so I look at them and have sweet memories of RUBY...z came by and started to work on some stuff--gave him a gift certificate re theinnat410...it should go to a lovely sweet young couple who are starting their life together or whatever...his smile went from one ear to the other ear....he was very appreciative. so grateful to have hp send him my way...what a dear! IT IS RAINING, YEA

Post Ruby Dubee

about this time last week I was holding r in my arms---what a sweety pie....miss her so much...someone asked me today if I was going to get another puppy and I said no. this is post-ruby days and I doubt if I will get another dog except for continuing to love Libby...r filled my heart and her presence is spiritual now....my internet at home is not working so i called the cable company and they said my firewall was blocking it so now i am at jitter's using my mac...my battery is going...sprint overcharged me....blah blah....so, life does continue doesn't it...i think i will have to get another job or get a room mate...this entire event has caused me so much pain and dissappointment in t...i lost her and now i am loosing more and more each day....i just don't understand why i am the one getting all the hard times after this...my lesson is to not get bitter and learn more each day about detachment and impermance of everything....love each minute and each day and be the love you want to share....i hope i can keep this in my mind and heart...z is coming over on thursday so that will be nice to see him again...he is putting in my fire alarm...L1, I love the pictures you have posted re your trip to sf....what fun...i was suppose to meet another friend here at 11 but she has not shown up..i hope i have the date right...oh..my cell phone and ipaq are not hot syning to my computer at home so my calendar stuff is all messed up...one nice thing happened to day--i got a notice from my office that i will be getting a 24 in mac for my sbs office....that will be cool...so later from sad c and trying to understand...

Giggle

This image made me giggle. I located a few of my earlier altered art pages and put them together; Bits and pieces from every where. Quotes, pictures, glue, stickers, drawing, clips, tin, stamping, crayons, paper, etc. Little did I know I would be showing these in my very own blog....yesterday c from sedona gave me two roses from the cottage; one is off white and the other is a blend of pink and light orange...she gave them to me re Ruby and my loss. She also gave me a small bottle of rose oil to take 3 times a day to help with my healing and loss. Thank you, c. A made a wonderful turkey and pork Thanksgiving dinner with all the treats...we all talked and talked---no TV at all! Just laughing and telling stories. So, this morning I have been getting my office together for future projects...of course, making more art. I cooked a turkey breast yesterday morning so I will have this new memory of the holidays and of course so I could have turkey for later. Today I made turkey soup with goodies. A house is becoming a home, my home. Thank you to Ruby, L1,L2,c, b, and all those not listed for all your love and support. Walking Out of November!

For Sweet Sweet Ruby

Ruby did not make it last night but passed away early on Wed morning. She went to sleep and her spirit left...I was able to be with her last night and put my arm and head on her face and said we loved her dearly. I thanked her for being her. My intitution thought she would not make to morning. This afternoon with b we watched the movie "Five People I knew in Heaven" and many of the major places in the film were called "Ruby"; so Ruby was letting us know she was with us...Ruby I love you and will always treasure your sweet, playful, cute, precsious,black and white short hair, long cute ears, the spots of black and white all over you, your affection, your love, cute barking, and running down the hallway with your ears flying and trying to get around the corner and sliding to catch up with yourself and everything else about you....i love u very much. May your journey take you far and wide and to all the places of love that you were to us. fly in beauty, ruby. Libby mises you and is looking for you....you will always be in my heart! sweet sweet Ruby.

we love u Ruby---

well this has been a really hard day; our dear little Ruby is very sick; her immune system is not doing very well and she is bleeding internally; tonight will be the second nite she is at the hospital; she is precious---please say a prayer for her and her sweet spirit. Love to little Ruby...the doc said she is not hurting but is very tired. She will be at the vet's alone tonight so please think positive thoughts for her and her recovery. i lov u Ruby.