build a dream

hi--good evening---it was a tiring day from this am until now. prep for classes; sw faculty meeting; r has been not feeling well so I took to the vet this evening; she is staying overnight and having tests. sure hope she is ok. b came over after her class; helped me with the bathroom stuff; my fingers are so sore from dryness and work around here; it is like having extra big cuts from paper..ouch..more grief and tears...darn it anyway....it will be 6 months this weekend...time heals but time also goes very slowly and fast all at the same time. holiday weekend and i will be spending the day with some friends..the image is from my play on Photoshop--sure like the brushes that copy "watercolor" on the edges; the image is really blue in the software but copied green...interesting process. nite nite

NVC--for all---I wish

I attended an all day workshop on "Non-Violent Communication (NVC) at UU; several members from UU attended; it was very helpful in understanding my own needs and how to ask for what I need and focus less on how others are not meeting my needs. Came home and used my drill for the first time; c gave me instructions over the phone on how to put the drill into the unit; I did it! Then I took two screws out of the shelves above the toliet. The water has been running and I want to get at the toliet bowl itself...I tried lifting it up but it got stuck. Need to get some help tomorrow. Tried to put the fire alarm on the wall but could not get it done. Turned on the DVD and VCR and could not get them to work...so frustrating...I want to do it myself but it was not happening tonight. l2 is out of town so I will not see her tomorrow...I am emotionally drained tonight; lots of feelings came up for me at the workshop on commication. The image is a template I got off the internet with some Photoshop enhancement....Good nite, be back tomorrow.

power into the future

This is totally amazing....I bought a POWER TOOL..that is a first! The image is a drill from homedepot....z taught me how to use it yesterday...it was used by him to put up my kitchen curtins...it is so empowering to learn how to do all of this stuff for the house...making it a home! Ieven replaced the kitchen sink hose...just image me going around the house looking at each room and making decisions about how to fix them...it is like a puzzle...putting all the peices together again..."remodeling my heart and home".

long day into the night and shopping in China

long day with preparation for class; teaching class, and then attending a 4 hour uu board meeting; I am tired and want a change--had a nice conversation with L1. Letterman is interveiwing Paris Hilton and he is making a fool of himself...she is strikingly beautiful...she is refusing to answer his questions re prison and he only wants to talk about it. He is being so rude! She has moved on and he doesn't want to talk about that--poor kid, so to speak. So, have a good night--all of the 45 minutes left before tomorrow. The image was taken a few weeks ago in China--it makes me grateful that I am four blocks from a Safeway---we are so lucky having all the resources we have...but what are we doing to others worldwide to make this happen??? food for thought....the photo is from the Heidi Swap's blog re her stay in China...thanks Heidi...

today I am grateful

L2 is so beautiful and such a life saver----thank you very much, L. Had one kid in our RE class this am; he was so cute; a was able to keep the conversation flowing with appropriate "kid" talk; I remained for the second service as I wanted to hear my UU friends talk about their UU story==as usual fk was sociological and deep; r was funny; a youth was tearful about how she had to let go some of her teen friends due to their faith differences; she has been raised in uu; she is our future and I am so proud of her...what courage to get in front of all the adults and pour her heart out; ck was sweet and funny too; it is so meaningful to have a faith community i really love and actually remained for the second service; while i was walking around during our "coffee break" i was saying to myself---little did i know so long ago (most of my adulthood) that I would be actually teaching ra and feeling so accepted and loved at a "church"; UU is exactly what my head and heart needs! i am at my home and it is really taking shape with beauty, love, and attention. It is getting what I needed for a long time too. The Girls are with t now...so quiet around here; so---thank you to all the vets who served our country in all the countless ways including t, of course. so totally vegging now and relaxing and not working but playing on my mac and watching channel 8...so me! good nite.

art is in the eye of the beholder2

Went to an wonderful art reception last night at the College of Business; e was showing her senior art project which included the clothes tags found in the back of our clothing from all around the world; she had dresses made out of these tags on live models (all formal-like); it was so creative, political, economic, and global--all at the same time. i hope she contacts some of the international corporations and shows her artwork to them; it is so powerful and timely;it is more evidence that the world is flat; she is a friend of z. the image I am posting today is what i made for her; she really does not know me but i wanted her to have something from me anyway....saw some ole friends at the reception. i wore my beautiful new pink coat for the occasion. i love art.

Flagstaff Way

I really had a hard day today...the kids in RE were so talkative; they are our future for real. I like doing the RE with ah. UU passed "the vote". Thank you l2 for your kindness and big hug...the mock convention was playful, amazing, fun, and just entertaining...hillary only got 3rd place; O got 1st and Bill R got 2nd...what was a surprise...very close votes. I got a "B lied" t-shirt. Had a good conversation with c and then I came home. time for me to go to bed---long day with lots of feelings..

i am having a heck of a journey right now!

Resentment---I have to pray about my feelings and let it go--also if I begin walking again I will feel the e and it will help me with my feelings of "Xovnerfihdfnj". The image I made today---c is blooming again on another journey at the center of her life; it will all be good---i am suppose to be in this right now---the kitchen is done and it is beautiful....love the color---surrounding me in warmth and loving caring hands! what a pal z has been...how fortunate that he came via Hope! yes Hope, thank you so very much...i will be positive and let it go; the only person it will be hurting is YOU, CHAR...let it go...let hp.

post card from char

it is almost midnight and here I am again...talked with my dear friend of many years---e from p....she is so sad; just can't seem to get anything right--i wish her joy and hope...i have been playing on photoshop; took an hour class on digital photography today--I learned so much about my camera (i guess it is mine since t has not asked for anything over here--she just got up and left--all of it--)I am thrilled about my kitchen being done...it so yummy...just love the soft cream color walls and pleasant lights--they all have dimmers on them so I play with them while I fixed dinner-yes, I actually made myself some cooked dinner! so, it has been a good day; lots of running around this am and afternoon; The Girls are back with me again...sure miss them! The image is considered A "freebie" from a online photoshop class I am taking; can't recall the person but want her to have credit for the image; however, I did add the message and the tiny square in the right bottom corner with the flowers. It is so playful in spite of it being love birds. I saw an ole friend today and she called me "a big ole sweetie"---It made me tear up...she is so cute and dear to so many people in flag...anyway....nite nite 5 min to midnight

post holoween--

Last night I went to see the "Yard Dogs Road Show" downtown Flag...what a blast---two shows in one...the "real" show on stage and the "other show" re the costumes and activities of the audience..I danced afterwards with all the "youth"...sheer pleasure, joy, and LAUGHING ALOT! The following is the description from their website and they really do everything that is mentioned. If it is your town GO SEE THEM! What a treat--trick or treat, that is....ha ha ha http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yard_Dogs_Road_Show The Subtle and the Absurd The Yard Dogs Road Show is a hobo cabaret, a living patchwork of vaudeville and rock and roll. In the enchanting land of stage show entertainment theirs is both pleasant and formidable terrain. They require a sensitivity to the subtle and the absurd. They lead the modern hobohemian on a visual and sonic journey through part of history that may or may not have existed – followed by an ambitious return to the emotional challenges of our punch-drunk contemporary world. It’s a true story on stage: sword swallowers, dancing dolls, fire eaters and sunset hobo poetry - all animated by the live sounds of the Yard Dogs cartoon heavy band. Yard Dogs Road Show is pure visual and sonic voodoo.

"this ole house": revisionist experience

up at 6:30 then off like a bolt of lighting...seriously...sprayed a curtin rod with white paint (from ugly black)(how exciting is that?)(and did not get any on myself); put all of the piles of leaves, wood, pinecones, litter, branches, more leaves, and more leaves (I think you have the picture)in trash bags (10 in all); (front yard); then cleaned all the pots on the front; dug 6 inches deep to plant bulbs for spring...that was really hard considering we have rocks 2 inches down...peat moss and bone meal to make the bulbs happy little campers until they come up; (it is like planting "hope" as my friend L1 would say--and she did on her own blog yesterday); washed screen door with 409..washed two screens for bedroom windows; did the laundry; are we done yet? all before 1:00 pm...then baked a variety of pototoes for lunch...yummy--then played on photoshop for some relaxation; z is still painting the kitchen; I hope I don't have to sell the house to pay him....it is so pretty---yummy too. tonight my second Spanish class at ccc...so, when am I going to prepare for class tomorrow? I guess at midnight tonight! oh well...sure having some fun making "this ole house" at least "middle age" now...that is suppose to be funny; t came over without calling me to pick up her mail and really liked the k---i hugged her when she left...so I am all independent now! repairing and painting the house is an external representation of what is going on internally! (aren't I smrt?)(from don)...off to get ready for tonight. The image is from my photoshop class and it is a receipe for Navajo Fry Bread...not low fat or diet; to say the least...it is getting colder now...so, char go to class!

Cleaning my life

Spent most of day cleaning the house, outside, plants & pots, dishes, clothes, etc etc...it is a cycle and it never ends...around and around and around...life is full of routines and more routines---plus class to even it all out! We need rain! HP help us. I selected this quilt from Hawaii when I went there last Feb with L1 and many others....I love the color and shape of it. nite nite

Playing with Art: Again

I am taking 2 photoshop on-line classes at the same time (I have learned one is enough); however, one of them I really enjoy and have learned a lot of new techniques for photoshop images and my own art..so the image I have today is from my experimenting with the new techniques; basically playing around after a very busy day: saw l2,UU, RA, townhall uu meeting; raked leaves in front (that was a new experience for me); then going to see "Michael Clayton" a fast moving movie with suspense until the very end! (popcorn too). I could not believe that a small coke was $3.50 --are they kidding! What a joke...anyway good day; warm and sunny--nite, nite...z have fun in lv if that is where u went! :) :)L1, I love the blubs; I am hoping to get to mine in the next few days...

art is in the eye of the beholder

It is really a beautiful day outside---a warm fall day with the sun shining with leaves still falling. I have been altereding "art" cards all morning---need to start grading my 370 class papers in a few minutes. z told me that the color of yellow is for "healing" and that means so much to me...he is what hp sent to me to transition the ole into the new...a new kitchen and the center of any home; my home! The type of yellow is "cottage white" from Home Depo. Very warm, soft, and mellow---mellow yellow and it goes with the orange title back splash....yummy, yummy...

La Luna in Arizona

the kitchen is closer to getting finished; I even painted a little today; all of the plants, furniture,etc. are on the porch; C took me out for my bd this evening and a joined us. I am pretty tired so off to bed now...long day...nite nite

much better day

I having a much better day today; actually taking a Spanish class for the next 4 weeks at our local cc...11 students; played my first cross-cultural card game tonight in Spanish; UNO...buenous noches..

just a bad day

tears are a human's way to show others you are real....I am.i hope those in sw220 learn from my role modeling...it was a hard day

Playing Again with PS

Credit for the flower collage is my dear friend, L1,+ she knows who she is...I just expanded on it...thanksl1.

Life is Full:Hannah Dau of L + D

ThesweetpictureisHthedauofl+d===whatabeauty===soluckytohaveherasasweetfriend;maythespiritblessu+keepusafe+protected... It has been a week since my bd...what a wonderful week; all kinds of extra surprises;satsaw"thejerseyboysintempeatgradygammage"withc+j pm+openedgiftsfroml1portlandwz; UU=prayers=hbsong=pinkcoat+surprisecardflowersfromts=ah+himmilayandinner=monday=ali&5wymenfriendsatjoesphines=bnfromtcatbrandysformybd===thenonwediwonaIPODrearaffleiwon!!!whatawildweekformy61birtday--atreattoseel22+iamblessedinsomanyways...evenlost3lbs!tonightiamdoingartworkandplayingonphotoshop...wenttosee"Elizabeth"+powerofwymn.nite.nite...thankstoeveryonewhohavebeenthereallmylife---socanureadthiscode?lastnitewenttosee"WhoseLineIsIT?"--laughterisenergyformysoul...gettingpainttoday[thatisanotherstory]...

"Its my birthday and I will cry if I want to" OR NOT!

What a delightful day from the very beginning until now just before midnight; went to Tempe to see "The Jersey Boys" a play/musical about the Four Seasons...it was so much fun and the music sent me to another place...it was a Grady Gammage, a building designed by Frank Lloyd Wright...the sea shell lights, the pink soft glowing rounded walls...what a treasure to see it. I went to see something years ago...I just love the design...had center seats 20 from the front---fabulous seats...went with 2 other very nice women, one from UU and a new person who works at a local elementry school. Got the names several books to read...saw fox on the way home; came home to B and Z and the girls. B gave me a sweet card and z was working on my kitchen...he is such a gentle soul...artist and musician..I asked him to stay while I open my gifts from l and he did...it was fun sharing this with him...he is a very special person and I am lucky to know him. It has been a wonderful day....a new life is forming for me and it is good. So good nite everyone and know that I love you all...thanks for the cards, calls, good wishes and fun times; all day long...I am a very fortunate person. nite nite Happy Birthday...