IT IS RAINING, RAINING, RAINING...

I am so grateful that is started to rain today....it has been too long...this morning we had fog surrounding our Peaks....so lovely, soft, and calming...it is raining....may all of our plants, trees, birds, 4 legged enjoy the RAIN. I do. Had lunch with a friend who I have known for 34 years..we were both social workers in Phx in the early 70's..she is very special...I appreciate her friendship and the support she has given to me. I actually have room in the garage to PARK MY CAR! This is a first, since we have had the house....it is tight but it is IN THE GARAGE. Took out the Christmas boxes and started to put some items up...first I was not going to but I am going to so I will have my own memories of my home now....thank you to all my friends who have helped me get through this event. The blubs I planted for Ruby are starting to come up (green tips); I have them next to the coffee maker in the kitchen...so I look at them and have sweet memories of RUBY...z came by and started to work on some stuff--gave him a gift certificate re theinnat410...it should go to a lovely sweet young couple who are starting their life together or whatever...his smile went from one ear to the other ear....he was very appreciative. so grateful to have hp send him my way...what a dear! IT IS RAINING, YEA

Post Ruby Dubee

about this time last week I was holding r in my arms---what a sweety pie....miss her so much...someone asked me today if I was going to get another puppy and I said no. this is post-ruby days and I doubt if I will get another dog except for continuing to love Libby...r filled my heart and her presence is spiritual now....my internet at home is not working so i called the cable company and they said my firewall was blocking it so now i am at jitter's using my mac...my battery is going...sprint overcharged me....blah blah....so, life does continue doesn't it...i think i will have to get another job or get a room mate...this entire event has caused me so much pain and dissappointment in t...i lost her and now i am loosing more and more each day....i just don't understand why i am the one getting all the hard times after this...my lesson is to not get bitter and learn more each day about detachment and impermance of everything....love each minute and each day and be the love you want to share....i hope i can keep this in my mind and heart...z is coming over on thursday so that will be nice to see him again...he is putting in my fire alarm...L1, I love the pictures you have posted re your trip to sf....what fun...i was suppose to meet another friend here at 11 but she has not shown up..i hope i have the date right...oh..my cell phone and ipaq are not hot syning to my computer at home so my calendar stuff is all messed up...one nice thing happened to day--i got a notice from my office that i will be getting a 24 in mac for my sbs office....that will be cool...so later from sad c and trying to understand...

Giggle

This image made me giggle. I located a few of my earlier altered art pages and put them together; Bits and pieces from every where. Quotes, pictures, glue, stickers, drawing, clips, tin, stamping, crayons, paper, etc. Little did I know I would be showing these in my very own blog....yesterday c from sedona gave me two roses from the cottage; one is off white and the other is a blend of pink and light orange...she gave them to me re Ruby and my loss. She also gave me a small bottle of rose oil to take 3 times a day to help with my healing and loss. Thank you, c. A made a wonderful turkey and pork Thanksgiving dinner with all the treats...we all talked and talked---no TV at all! Just laughing and telling stories. So, this morning I have been getting my office together for future projects...of course, making more art. I cooked a turkey breast yesterday morning so I will have this new memory of the holidays and of course so I could have turkey for later. Today I made turkey soup with goodies. A house is becoming a home, my home. Thank you to Ruby, L1,L2,c, b, and all those not listed for all your love and support. Walking Out of November!

For Sweet Sweet Ruby

Ruby did not make it last night but passed away early on Wed morning. She went to sleep and her spirit left...I was able to be with her last night and put my arm and head on her face and said we loved her dearly. I thanked her for being her. My intitution thought she would not make to morning. This afternoon with b we watched the movie "Five People I knew in Heaven" and many of the major places in the film were called "Ruby"; so Ruby was letting us know she was with us...Ruby I love you and will always treasure your sweet, playful, cute, precsious,black and white short hair, long cute ears, the spots of black and white all over you, your affection, your love, cute barking, and running down the hallway with your ears flying and trying to get around the corner and sliding to catch up with yourself and everything else about you....i love u very much. May your journey take you far and wide and to all the places of love that you were to us. fly in beauty, ruby. Libby mises you and is looking for you....you will always be in my heart! sweet sweet Ruby.

we love u Ruby---

well this has been a really hard day; our dear little Ruby is very sick; her immune system is not doing very well and she is bleeding internally; tonight will be the second nite she is at the hospital; she is precious---please say a prayer for her and her sweet spirit. Love to little Ruby...the doc said she is not hurting but is very tired. She will be at the vet's alone tonight so please think positive thoughts for her and her recovery. i lov u Ruby.

build a dream

hi--good evening---it was a tiring day from this am until now. prep for classes; sw faculty meeting; r has been not feeling well so I took to the vet this evening; she is staying overnight and having tests. sure hope she is ok. b came over after her class; helped me with the bathroom stuff; my fingers are so sore from dryness and work around here; it is like having extra big cuts from paper..ouch..more grief and tears...darn it anyway....it will be 6 months this weekend...time heals but time also goes very slowly and fast all at the same time. holiday weekend and i will be spending the day with some friends..the image is from my play on Photoshop--sure like the brushes that copy "watercolor" on the edges; the image is really blue in the software but copied green...interesting process. nite nite

NVC--for all---I wish

I attended an all day workshop on "Non-Violent Communication (NVC) at UU; several members from UU attended; it was very helpful in understanding my own needs and how to ask for what I need and focus less on how others are not meeting my needs. Came home and used my drill for the first time; c gave me instructions over the phone on how to put the drill into the unit; I did it! Then I took two screws out of the shelves above the toliet. The water has been running and I want to get at the toliet bowl itself...I tried lifting it up but it got stuck. Need to get some help tomorrow. Tried to put the fire alarm on the wall but could not get it done. Turned on the DVD and VCR and could not get them to work...so frustrating...I want to do it myself but it was not happening tonight. l2 is out of town so I will not see her tomorrow...I am emotionally drained tonight; lots of feelings came up for me at the workshop on commication. The image is a template I got off the internet with some Photoshop enhancement....Good nite, be back tomorrow.

power into the future

This is totally amazing....I bought a POWER TOOL..that is a first! The image is a drill from homedepot....z taught me how to use it yesterday...it was used by him to put up my kitchen curtins...it is so empowering to learn how to do all of this stuff for the house...making it a home! Ieven replaced the kitchen sink hose...just image me going around the house looking at each room and making decisions about how to fix them...it is like a puzzle...putting all the peices together again..."remodeling my heart and home".

long day into the night and shopping in China

long day with preparation for class; teaching class, and then attending a 4 hour uu board meeting; I am tired and want a change--had a nice conversation with L1. Letterman is interveiwing Paris Hilton and he is making a fool of himself...she is strikingly beautiful...she is refusing to answer his questions re prison and he only wants to talk about it. He is being so rude! She has moved on and he doesn't want to talk about that--poor kid, so to speak. So, have a good night--all of the 45 minutes left before tomorrow. The image was taken a few weeks ago in China--it makes me grateful that I am four blocks from a Safeway---we are so lucky having all the resources we have...but what are we doing to others worldwide to make this happen??? food for thought....the photo is from the Heidi Swap's blog re her stay in China...thanks Heidi...

today I am grateful

L2 is so beautiful and such a life saver----thank you very much, L. Had one kid in our RE class this am; he was so cute; a was able to keep the conversation flowing with appropriate "kid" talk; I remained for the second service as I wanted to hear my UU friends talk about their UU story==as usual fk was sociological and deep; r was funny; a youth was tearful about how she had to let go some of her teen friends due to their faith differences; she has been raised in uu; she is our future and I am so proud of her...what courage to get in front of all the adults and pour her heart out; ck was sweet and funny too; it is so meaningful to have a faith community i really love and actually remained for the second service; while i was walking around during our "coffee break" i was saying to myself---little did i know so long ago (most of my adulthood) that I would be actually teaching ra and feeling so accepted and loved at a "church"; UU is exactly what my head and heart needs! i am at my home and it is really taking shape with beauty, love, and attention. It is getting what I needed for a long time too. The Girls are with t now...so quiet around here; so---thank you to all the vets who served our country in all the countless ways including t, of course. so totally vegging now and relaxing and not working but playing on my mac and watching channel 8...so me! good nite.

art is in the eye of the beholder2

Went to an wonderful art reception last night at the College of Business; e was showing her senior art project which included the clothes tags found in the back of our clothing from all around the world; she had dresses made out of these tags on live models (all formal-like); it was so creative, political, economic, and global--all at the same time. i hope she contacts some of the international corporations and shows her artwork to them; it is so powerful and timely;it is more evidence that the world is flat; she is a friend of z. the image I am posting today is what i made for her; she really does not know me but i wanted her to have something from me anyway....saw some ole friends at the reception. i wore my beautiful new pink coat for the occasion. i love art.

Flagstaff Way

I really had a hard day today...the kids in RE were so talkative; they are our future for real. I like doing the RE with ah. UU passed "the vote". Thank you l2 for your kindness and big hug...the mock convention was playful, amazing, fun, and just entertaining...hillary only got 3rd place; O got 1st and Bill R got 2nd...what was a surprise...very close votes. I got a "B lied" t-shirt. Had a good conversation with c and then I came home. time for me to go to bed---long day with lots of feelings..

i am having a heck of a journey right now!

Resentment---I have to pray about my feelings and let it go--also if I begin walking again I will feel the e and it will help me with my feelings of "Xovnerfihdfnj". The image I made today---c is blooming again on another journey at the center of her life; it will all be good---i am suppose to be in this right now---the kitchen is done and it is beautiful....love the color---surrounding me in warmth and loving caring hands! what a pal z has been...how fortunate that he came via Hope! yes Hope, thank you so very much...i will be positive and let it go; the only person it will be hurting is YOU, CHAR...let it go...let hp.

post card from char

it is almost midnight and here I am again...talked with my dear friend of many years---e from p....she is so sad; just can't seem to get anything right--i wish her joy and hope...i have been playing on photoshop; took an hour class on digital photography today--I learned so much about my camera (i guess it is mine since t has not asked for anything over here--she just got up and left--all of it--)I am thrilled about my kitchen being done...it so yummy...just love the soft cream color walls and pleasant lights--they all have dimmers on them so I play with them while I fixed dinner-yes, I actually made myself some cooked dinner! so, it has been a good day; lots of running around this am and afternoon; The Girls are back with me again...sure miss them! The image is considered A "freebie" from a online photoshop class I am taking; can't recall the person but want her to have credit for the image; however, I did add the message and the tiny square in the right bottom corner with the flowers. It is so playful in spite of it being love birds. I saw an ole friend today and she called me "a big ole sweetie"---It made me tear up...she is so cute and dear to so many people in flag...anyway....nite nite 5 min to midnight

post holoween--

Last night I went to see the "Yard Dogs Road Show" downtown Flag...what a blast---two shows in one...the "real" show on stage and the "other show" re the costumes and activities of the audience..I danced afterwards with all the "youth"...sheer pleasure, joy, and LAUGHING ALOT! The following is the description from their website and they really do everything that is mentioned. If it is your town GO SEE THEM! What a treat--trick or treat, that is....ha ha ha http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yard_Dogs_Road_Show The Subtle and the Absurd The Yard Dogs Road Show is a hobo cabaret, a living patchwork of vaudeville and rock and roll. In the enchanting land of stage show entertainment theirs is both pleasant and formidable terrain. They require a sensitivity to the subtle and the absurd. They lead the modern hobohemian on a visual and sonic journey through part of history that may or may not have existed – followed by an ambitious return to the emotional challenges of our punch-drunk contemporary world. It’s a true story on stage: sword swallowers, dancing dolls, fire eaters and sunset hobo poetry - all animated by the live sounds of the Yard Dogs cartoon heavy band. Yard Dogs Road Show is pure visual and sonic voodoo.