Go Hilary---

Prayers for Hilary re her continued run..."First Woman President"---do u see me in this photo of NACRP faculty and staff last year? Today it was 70+ degrees in Flag....I started my packing for my Tucson trip this weekend; need to pack less warm clothes and toss in lighter outfits..went to a presentation tonight from a Chinese gay actor...he was so funny and gave lots of encouragement to "the youth" in the audience. z is working on the drainage in the front part of the house; the snow is melting and it felt like SPRING TODAY. My relationship with food right now seems to be more in keeping with how I was last year; less tension oriented and less need to overeat due to my feelings. Had dinner with m & j and practiced reading espanol with m for while. I love them both...Spoke with l1 tonight; her mom died one year ago; L1 is so kind, loving, and a true sister.....thank you L2 for being u. lov nite nite

Hilary's Last Stand

Just watched the 20th "debate"...Her problem is that she keeps trying to show everyone how hard she is and will work for us but that is not working; however, Obama talks to every one's heart and head. I heard recently that in Chinese the word "Hope" means "medicine" so maybe that is what our country needs. I feel sorry for Hilary but she is a great leader and by her just running for president MAKES HISTORY. I still think she represents a PC computer and he a IMAC...she is a trusted, hard working, functional, reliabe but he is fresh, innovative, passion oriented,and hears the youth and their voice. So enough about my political views....z will be coming over tomorrow to work on the drainage system in the front; the kitchen lights went out last nite and I called him and he came over to see what happened. We had a great conversation, what a terrific human being. The artwork was obtained from the internet; I don't know the artist's name but want to give credit.

love this quote

The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice. Martin Luther King, Jr.

exam 1 in espanol

well i did better than i thought i would...i got a "B"---that is fine with me. crazy evening; went to lonetree campus for a slide show re another country and it was changed to 4th street; it was snow-raining so i just decided to go home; rats..still tired from my trip to portland over the weekend...be open char--ok

hvday2_14_08

c left me a message on my cell wishing me a hvd...so sweet so i asked her over to have dinner; had a delightful time; talking and laughing and watched tv; it snowed lots today; bought myself a plant; reached out and had a nice evening...thank g it is over...very hard day re s bill...self care, start with something small...next door neighbor did my driveway...I did ask but he did it...a hugh help...i did some of the shoveling and my back and neck are hurting...will pack tomorrow...getting excited...c will take care of my cats; so, nite nite

Almost fainted

t sent me an e-mail and she said "thank you"---this is the first positive word (s) she has said to me since nov, 2007. over a phone bill..oh well...Wed had my first spanish 101 exam..i studied really hard but I have no idea how I did. the teacher did not keep students quiet and several of us were not done; that made me angry cuz it was not respectful of our needs; i stayed a few minutes afterwards to finish the exam; then off to a uu board meeting---i only have 3 more board meetings...off in june...yea! off to portland on sat...to see l1. owning the power to direct your destiny...i am doing that now...nite or bueas noches....las doce y qunice son las manana--yo soy responsable y intelligente...muy ???? so up late to bring in feb14...what a year this has been; now i understand why t sent me a basketful of food, fruit, crackers, candy to my office with a note that was signed "lots of love,t"---she knew...she had never sent me any food products generally it was red roses with a romatic card...she was detached and leaving---oh what a year that was...thank g it is over now...i will never love XXX again...that was it. and now I am free of her rejection and not being present for me in so many ways; thank you g for sending her away...it (she) was not good for me. she is with another person now with l...hope she is finally happy; she certainly was not with me to say the least...adois....

the day after

I am wiped out today--so much happened yesterday from the wonderful UUFF 50th anniversary to seeing so many people, ushering, meeting people for breakfast and lunch...singing, laughing, eating, listening, and thinking....j from pv came up and it was his first time at UUFF; what a way to see what it all about; sweet person; l was up from BC; saw bb....watched the 50th anniversary of the Grammy's...so yesterday was all about 50! Also remembering the big party t gave me when I turned 50--have a conference call re sw in few minutes then i have to do my homework for my spanish class....yesterday was like spring in Flag....sunny, warmer, snow melting, and just beautiful! so, hello to my dear family in portland..see u soon. later, from charchar

50 years of Flag UUFF

Went to a circle of friends at UU to hear about the development of UU in Flag from 50years ago....what a speical event. Laughter, joy, and sweetness....tomorrow the big celebration at DuBois at NAU....a real treat...so wonderful to be a part of this historical event....nite nite

Acceptance is . . . . .

good day...at nacrp today with m. did not go to sleep until 2 AM....worked on the new revisions of the paper...life is all about acceptance....even if we don't want it to be! darn it anyway....the more I want to resist the more I will have to accept and be open to the new doors of my life; let go and let goddess...what a concept...over and over again and again...ok lesson!

A New Friend: Jeff

Yesterday was Super Tuesday and I went to Charley's to see other democratic folks; I got there about 5:45 and waited and waited and waited...looking around for others; no one..so I decided to just sit by myself at a table (no one else was there) and waited; had some water......then a young man came in and was wandering around too; he asked if I was there re the democratic party get together and I said yes....he sat down across from me and we started a grand conversation....so a new friendship has been started....it was really fun, funny, serious, political, energizing, and just delightful....hp has given me a new friend....we ate and were the only ones in the resturant for about an hour...then we wandered around looking for others; saw d and m and then got together with a few more demos and watched the later part of the elections....so, you never know what is going to happen. I invited him and his partner and 2 children to the UU event on Sunday and they will be attending...the new doors in my life are getting very interesting...I wonder what else is in store??? I just have to stay open and not be angry or hateful but be grateful for all that has happened in my life; there is a big lesson I am suppose to learn from t leaving and I am open to learning them! thank you hp. Taught sw220 this afternoon and then had my spanish class...pretty tired but I do love seeing the students and my spanish class is very enjoyable; got the results back from my first oral exam and I got 23 out of 25 "Bien" from the instructor....hasta manana or adios....carlota

Snow Angels: Thank You

Monday we had a huge snow storm...foot of snow all around my house....I was in for the day or maybe week...too much to shovel...then I heard shuffling...I looked outside and 5 young men were shoveling outside....my dear friend r sent them over...so this is my lesson to love and accept missionaries no matter what my previuos thoughts were earlier....just thought a sermon w gave a couple weeks ago about something similiar...ok, got it hp...!! let go and let goddess I now refer to them as 'the Snow Angels".....one from Chinle, Canada, all around...

Snow and More Snow and Then Some

I have had a cold the last couple of days...c so sweet and brought me OJ from the store; she even sholved my path from the front door to my car...that was about 3:00 pm and now it is all covered with snow again...I have not been out of the house since Thursday....the only footprints I can see outside have been made by Opie...sweet soft princess of a feline. I took my first oral exam via a voice mail...I think I did ok...a different way of testing, I must say...being a student has been very interesting to learn more about teaching techniques and how students today are responding...had a big error re my checking account yesterday re t...i called her and we actually were talking in a pleasant manner. that felt good; they had depoisted her $ into my account...so wf will be taking care of it this week...did not go to l or uu today; just did not feel good. ...thanks for cold pills...less coughing as least. The pix is Window Rock, Arizona where I lived when I was a teenager...I actually walked on the sandstone...from the other side...nite nite

Voting and Reading: What a Day

It was hard but I did it! The debates are currently on and it is like watching the past and the future; we actually need both perspectives! I want HC to win but I just don't think it will happen....the wave in our country to hear someone who gives us a sense of hope is what we need after the demise of our country by litte liteb...so, it will be a very interesting few days...Super Tuesday is only a few days away....I was so happy to vote today; I did my civic duty toward making our democracy work...little as that is; it is! Go vote! I am starting to read Oprah's new book: A New Earth:Awakening to Your Life's Purpose". I also signed up at midnight to join her classroom on-line with the author, Eckhart Tolle....SHOUD BE GOOD! Go Read! nite nite

Letting My House Talk Today

Yes, living in a large house can present problems one would rather ignore...1. just noticed the wooden fence on the right side of the house is falling down; 2. the furnace is sounding odd (when it stops it kinda goes "boom"); 3 the front drainage is nonexistent (so by it being frozen right now lessens its priority); 4. the carpet in my office and the bedroom are for the DUMP; 5. THEN THERE IS THE LIVING ROOM WITH NO FLOOR EXCEPT A PAINTED (UGLY) GREY WOODEN FLOOR..this was one of t's ideas that never came came to a positive conclusion (except to say it is STILL NOT DONE); and I am sure there are things I still have not NOTICED NOR DO I WANT TO NOTICE...so, the joys of owning a house! So, where do I start...I think having someone come in to check the furnace would be the best place cuz I will freeze without it....the other things are more cosmetic....and the drainage can wait until there is something except ice to drain...like spring....I have been shoving the snow in the front and yesterday it took an hour (so thanks to t who kept the snow blower in spite of not using it at c)(another selfish act)...so, besides being physically tired I have an exam tonight in my Spanish class....so, enough about ME...this blog can serve many purposes and today it is to GIVE A VOICE TO ALL THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. So, if you have read this far you must really love me or you are crazy...I hope it is the former....someone said "art is like running away from home"; so back to my altered art projects....so I have to "alter" my house but just can't do it RIGHT NOW; but the main difference between t and I is THAT I WILL DO IT. What a disappointment she has been....and don't get me started re libby. I love you Libby, if you could read this you would know that; I have not forgotten you...I am trying to forget t but I will never forget you and I hope I will see you soon................thank you to all the friends who have been there for me during all of this....

Hola-Hasta Manana

Spanish 101 requires homework....I like doing the excercies cuz I really want to learn how to speak it....it will be wonderful to converse with those all around me...when I listen to the radio I can understand more each day...nite or buenos nochas....yo tango tres gatos...I think that means cats...hope so.

Charlotte's New House:2008

A Statement about Building New Houses:

Imagine yourself as a living house. Goddess comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what She is doing. She is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently She starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is She up to? The explanation is that She is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but She is building a palace. She intends to come and live in it Herself.

From C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity **gender changed to protect the innocent.

Of course I give credit to Z for helping too.

Thank you Goddess: It is Over!

Signed the legal papers today....at 1:15 pm....so it is all over! I am so happy; she is not who I knew before and I am glad not to be associated with her anymore. She has turned into her father, an ole bitter, hateful, mean, and spiteful person. I love u Libby; I have not forgotten you.....I will be walking through new doors and a new life.....I have already....! Thank you to all the angels who have guided me so far and especially to l1 and l2......nite nite--baby son is on my keyboard...so cute.

Doorways Full of Life and Love

why can't we have all 3 of them...hcboje...???? hola, buenas noches...y....mi llama es carlota...just started to learn about Spanish so be patient with me; play play with photoshop...a new door for me! I have earned a NEW DOOR IN 2008, later

Blue Tile: Searching for a Beauty

I think this tile is so pretty; I love this color....just playing now...Baby Son is on my files next to my keyboard...napping...I want to nap too. bye

ikea---what a place to shop and drop

the retreat went pretty well; new people on the project so that will take some time; drove home tonight so I could be in my own bed with my own "kids" ---my jaw is still hurting so I am going to go see the dentist next week.

got 2 pretty quilt covers and pillow cases; very modern colors and designs; silky satin pillow cases; so just tired and want to go to bed early for a change. later

(this is the first video I am posting) Actually this is not of the "kids" but

the back yard in reveiew in the summer; nice trees. I did find one

of sweet Ruby---she is kinda quiet.